Why I’ll Hurry Up And Wait On My Way to Healing Recovery

Why I’ll Hurry Up And Wait My Way to Healing Recovery

Hurry up and wait has become the tireless refrain running through my brain as of late, ever since I restarted the deep-dive investigation into a medical mystery that has haunted the lion’s share of my adult life. You’d think that this 20-year adventure would have fully schooled me in patience. Yet, while this arduous journey has absolutely made me more resilient, relentless, and resolute, being … [Read more...]

Looking Back With Grief and Gratitude On Last Year’s Road to Recovery

Looking Back With Grief and Gratitude On Last Year's Road to Recovery

A year ago yesterday, tests to monitor my heart landed me in the hospital with full-body muscle contractions, quirky contortions, and breathing difficulties, marking my first major dystonia storm in more than five years. I have lived with dystonia for a decade now; last month marked our 10th anniversary together. Those first few years were especially challenging (and included a 5-day hospital stay … [Read more...]

Loving My Body Through A Decade Living With Dystonia

Ten years a slave– To tangled limbs And a torquing spine, To a broken medical system And neural network gone offline Ten years an observer– Of the quirky, jerky movement of a marionette Compensatorily adopted two decades ago After a bike/car accident left my Body and soul bruised and bowed Ten years a student– Of physiology and the human mind; Acquiring an armchair PhD In … [Read more...]

Reclaiming When I Feel Most Alive

Reclaiming When I Feel Most Alive

I feel most alive amidst The lilting arpeggio of birdsong– Shoes crunching through scattered leaves And my eyes lifted to a sky shimmering With a web of verdant limbs I feel most alive when My fingers pluck at nylon strings– Eyes closed, head tossed back, Mouth bursting at the seams with Thought-felt phrases knitted from the soul. I feel most alive when The melody of pure laughter … [Read more...]

Seeking the Road to Recovery When Eyes Cannot See Clearly

Seeking the Road to Recovery When Eyes Cannot See Clearly

Two months ago, my life with dystonia ‘got flipped turned upside down’ and i’ve been on a rollercoaster ride of recovery from it ever since. Seemingly overnight, my plush California King-sized bed transformed into the terrifying setting for violent contortions that wiped me out for much of the next day. Accompanying this sudden change, the sights that normally inspired me as a writer and the … [Read more...]

She’s Climbing the Stairway To Steady Health

She's Climbing The Stairway to Steady Health

Nine months ago, when my husband and I were moving into the three-story condominium we’re currently renting, I was more than a wee bit concerned with how I’d navigate all those levels. My office would on the top floor, with our bedroom, main bathroom, and laundry beneath me. Two flights of stairs stood between my desk and the kitchen sink, and the ground floor led down another flight of stairs to … [Read more...]

A Sensory Retrospective of Gratitude on a Sleeper of a Year

A Gratitude-Filled Look Back on the Sleeper of A Year 2018

This humble, human vessel I call my own always seems to be brimming over with an abundance of gratitude this time of year. As a December baby, the first day of New Year on the Gregorian calendar shortly follows my own completed rotation around the sun. As a result, the final month of the year becomes an extended period of personal reflection, retrospection and appreciation for the experiences and … [Read more...]

Riding the Body’s Ebbs and Flows: The Bumpy Road To Recovery After A D&C

Riding the Body's Ebbs and Flows- The Bumpy Road To Recovery After A D&C

A month ago today, I went under anesthesia for what is misleadingly classified as a minor surgery to try to get to the bottom of abnormal bleeding from my lady parts. In between two trips and pre-op appointments with both my gynecological surgeon and my primary care doctor, I spent most of October preparing for a surgery that I suspected would affect me more than the average bear, as most … [Read more...]

The Ongoing DINE-CD Trial to Study Whether Diet Might Help Manage Mild to Moderate Crohn’s Disease

Dine-CD

With an estimated 1.6 million people living with either Crohn’s disease or ulcerative colitis in the United States, there is increasing need to research safe and effective ways to manage debilitating symptoms that–pardon the expression–hit patients right in the gut. Crohn’s and ulcerative colitis are considered the two main types of inflammatory bowel disease (IBD), and they manifest differently … [Read more...]

Taking Back Control Over My Moving Limbs at Dystonia Zoo Walk Providence

Taking Back Control Over My Moving Limbs at Dystonia Zoo Walk Providence

This Saturday, my husband and I are heading to Roger Williams Zoo in Providence, RI, for the very first time, and I can’t even explain how much I’m looking forward to this unique experience. It’s been more than a decade since I last visited a major zoo, but getting the chance to have close-up encounters with snow leopards and giraffes isn’t the main reason that I’m itching to get to Providence. … [Read more...]