by Renée Canada
Yesterday was the toughest day I’ve had in quite a while. I suppose I couldn’t expect that recent reprieve to be anything more than temporary. One could hope with all that they have, and even begin to believe. I know I did.
In addition to the itching and burning of the conjunctivitis (pink eye) in both eyes that refuses to go away, the discomfort of the styes and other infections, yesterday I fell several times in the shower, several times down the stairs, and other places around the house due to the dystonia. I injured my shoulder and wrist pretty badly and of course added to my hip and leg bruises.
Despite this, I have allowed myself to get swept up—why do they call this losing yourself in something when this is definitely finding yourself—in the dream-building and goal-setting in ways that are growing more concrete, glistening with more focus. I know all this pain and suffering is not in vain. These are growing experiences that I learn from every single day.
What I take from this period of my life, I will share with others who are going through similar experiences. Hopefully sharing what I have learned from these years will help them find their own answers and paths toward healing more quickly, with less suffering, and coming at less a cost to them, both financially and personally. I take comfort from this.
• This past week I had worked my way back up to 15 real push ups again after far too many months. Huge accomplishment!
• Last night, I was able to focus my mind enough to listen to several short lectures on ye ole iTouch again, for first time since beginning of week.